Yucky past week

So, I was on bed rest for 5 day and let me tell you, it was not fun. I have never watched so much TV in my life. but I'm back to normal, (well as normal as I can get). Female issues are not fun to deal with. Being so sick makes me want to do my treatments even worse, but some weight needs to come off first. My first weigh in is Friday!! Not feeling too optimistic as the medication they out me on makes me kinda bloated and MISERABLE...I have been riding the mood swing since last week and I want off!

so, my dad comes into town tomorrow for 12 days. This should be an adventurous 12 days. Paul's going out of town Friday for the night right off the bat, how does he get away with doing that? So thats it for now...I"m bored at work and ready for a nap!

UGH, Mondays....

I hate Monday's as the rest of the world does. Coming off such a great weekend. I actually got to enjoy my weekend. I worked Saturday, but only till 2, then we took Miss Molly for a beauty appt. she smells so much better and looks beautiful. Shes such a great dog. Yesterday Paul and I and Molly went for a 4 mile walk. We were all pooped out after that! The weather is starting to turn for the better in Upstate NY. Yesterday was gorgeous.



So, on another note, me ovulating on my own doesn't mean that I got pregnant, because I didn't. I do so well for a few weeks, then I get so sad all over again. I am pretty sad again and loosing hope, but Paul always talks me out of loosing the hope. I HATE feeling like this and wondering if its ever going to happen. so onto another month and here's to a BFP in Late April!

My first post

Hi everyone! today is my first post and hoping people will follow my story.



We are currently on a undeserved break from any infertility treatments. I'm anxious to start them up again, however not sure if I will ever be ready for it. As some people know, its a very trying and emotional process. We have experienced so much heart ache in the past months and not sure I am put myself through it or Paul for that matter.

To this day, I still tell myself and believe that we can do it on our own, and I don't want to let myself down, but month after month with disappointment makes it harder. Now, This month, well I should say in March, We made a HUGE progress on our own and I ovulated for the first time to the best of my knowledge. At least on my own, without any medication helping me out. Every once and awhile, you "get by with a little help from your friends" and my friends were the infertility drugs. The didn't help me the way I wanted, but I"m working on getting rid of the bitterness, its not something you can just "let go" or move on with your life. It takes time, how much time, who knows, maybe I will never get over it. Its looking that way.

I am currently on a strict diet, well, not too strict, but strict enough. I told myself before the diet started that if and when we decide to do more treatment, that I need to loose about 30-40 lbs. So, unannounced to me, I had to go on a diet, drs orders due to my sugar level. As of Today 04/05/08, 3 weeks into the diet, I have lost about 10 lbs. I want to thank my ovulation to my diet, but who knows. I am doing low carb and for those you know me well, knows that it worked before and lost about 40-50 lbs about 4+ years ago. Hearing it from the dr, really pushed me to do it, I would always come up with an excuse not to do it. "Oh, but I could be pregnant, so this slice of pizza. wont hurt me" RIGHT.... I do feel much better, health wise and I can just start to tell the difference in my clothes, so I will keep plugging away at the diet. I am going to start exercising again, so more weight should be coming off in the upcoming weeks. I keep telling myself, Annmarie, if you loose the weight, you will be rewarded and my reward is a baby. God, I hope I'm right. And also seeing those commercials on T.V. with cute spring outfits, that's pushing me as well.

So, that's it for now, oh WAIT, how could I forget, We added another furbaby to our family. Miss Molly Maroney, shes a very good dog and we just love her. She has her first "spa" appt today. shes getting a bath, nails clipped and more, so she will smell pretty. Thanks for reading and I hope you will follow me through this battle we are at war with!