Today is just one of those days, GOD GET ME PREGNANT. So, I have been fighting with the insurance company for months, literally about 5 months. I was extremely lucky to have insurance cover my first 2 IVF's and it should cover a third, but they are saying I maxed out my benefits. WHATEVER, every time I call or the Dr office calls, we get a different story. I am so just frustrated and sad that I have been so patient and to think I may never be able to do another treatment. We would never be able to afford it on our own. Today is day number 47 of my cycle and my period is nowhere in sight and I just want to crawl in a ball and cry and hide from the world. I am so thankful its a long weekend. I keep all this bottled up inside me because none of my friends understand the mental pain I deal with day after day. But its not everyday I am sad, it comes and goes in spurts. I do not go one day thinking about having a child. Will this ever go away?? Most likely not... Its coming up on a year since my last Laperoscopy and that's when all the craziness started, I wish I could go back and maybe do things a little different.
So I am sad today and want it to end.... Have a nice day!!!
Thursday, May 22, 2008
so sad...
Posted by Annmarie at 7:49 AM
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Just crawling over from thenest to post you a comment. Feel free to talk to me whenever you want...I know what its like to not get AF for weeks..months..and wonder if this will ever happen....if you'll ever get to feel the joys that other women get to feel. Its a pain that you can actually feel in your heart. We're both on day 48 of no AF.
You're in my thoughts.
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